A storm of timber and Splinters

A mass of lines and Shapes

Gapless imagination

boundless mysteries

forward

Looking forward and upward.
Walking towards the sun
Who will take care of the shadows?
embrace me for who i have become.

Falling too hard

Falling too fast

For the one 

who wont return

these feelings

Why does this

always happen

to me

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a roller coaster of emotions

a south beach silhouette

light a smoke beneath the 

dark atlantic sky

pain is good.
pain is real.
pain is life.
pain is death.
embrace pain.

Forgive me....

The will of fire

The passion the can never be put out. 

Of lightless winters and deathly silence

Slowly freezing over
lost in endless thoughts
trudging through the darkness
With no direction

Standing still in a motion filled blur.

for you i shall wait

how long can i wait

i wait and wait

and its tearing me up inside

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It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you

But when we are apart I feel it too

And no matter what I do I feel the pain

With or without you

Baby I don't understand

Just why we can't be lovers

Things are gettin' out of hand

Tryin' too much but baby we can't win

Let it go

If you want me girl let me know

I am down on my knees

I can't take it anymore

[Chorus]

Baby don't misunderstand

What I'm tryin' to tell ya

In the corner of my mind

Baby it feels like we're running out of time

Let it go

If you want me girl let me know

I am down on my knees

I can't take it anymore

Tearin' up my heart my soul

We're apart I feel it too

And no matter what I do I feel the pain

With or without you

And no matter what I do I feel the pain

With or without you

okay so the second hotel location is screwed up
so sue me
like i know where everything is in this damn place
judge me for all i care
Fuck my miserable life.
i am just feeling miserable right now.
what ever it is
if you think i'm to blame then so be it.
next time i wont even bother doing anything.
fucking thankless job.
no one cares if you do it well
everyone fucks you for screwing up.
Such is the life of me.

Off to vietnam in a couple of hours.
maybe i'll post more when i get there.
right now.
i have not a care in the world but keeping my people safe.

to be needed is an addictive feeling...
but that feeling is temporary
and leaves you wanting more...
so dun expect anything
and maybe you wont fell anything.

its a wonder how ignorant some people are.

but no matter.... i will carry on

back to writing some songs
it looks like its turning out well
maybe that will do the trick

a fleeting moment
and time stands still
a fleeting glance
the the world flips
a fleeting touch
and it lingers
oh how i wish for it again

i hate this day...
i always have...
and it looks like i always will...
an extravagant day, a superficial day...
and an aggravating day...
i'm soory for being such a bitch...
but if you have spent some time in my shoes...
you will know why this usually cheerful guy...
becomes a angst infused being of pure hate...
intangibly irrelevant...
tragic entity of circumstance...

karma

what goes arnd comes arnd

treat others as you would want others to treat you

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lies All Lies

bad things happen to good people

good things happen to bad people

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Fuck this Shit

Say good bye.
as we dance with the devil tonight.
dont you ever look him in the eye
as we dance with the devil tonight.

its tuesday....
nothing more...
a whole lot less...

alls well

it seems to be going well...
looks like i'll be fine...
gotta keep the faith...
watch over me evil angel.

Looming

looming ever so closer
the time in wench all shall be rend asunder
the blood of the ages will be shed
and the sound of devastation will strike dread

a little more

its almost time!

Smile!

Tick tock

the countdown begins anew.
18 hours or so
im almost done
too bad for those who did not put in the effort
afterall
you reap what you sow
and you sowed very little my friend
as always
Keep Calm and Carry On

Breaking

you have to have all
Well have you had enough
You greedy little bastard
You will get what you deserve

silent requiem

 just take a breath

and softly say goodbye

525600

a second a minute an hour a day a week a month a year

Fighting

So here we are

fighting and

trying hide the scars

Shit! shit! shit! shit!

i think im losing ground.

what do i do?

do i take the risk?

cuz whenever i see it

i get SO MAD

its wrong and i know it

maybe im just being stupid

FUCK THIS SHIT!

thoughts of a new beginning

Been thinking....

about a lot of things lately....

wondering if its worth it....

do i say what i feel....

or will it just backfire on me....

maybe in a little while....

maybe....

falling through these day....

100 miles an hour....

move along move along

5 days to critique.

think im almost there

should be better this time round.

hopefully everything works out.

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work work

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